Time again...

Heard today that they deploy October 18th. It is so soon :( I thought we'd have more time....I am completely unprepared for all if this. Now we have Cannon and Bart....I did it with one I can try with two right? It's been so hard to deal with the restriction and training and I'm trying to stay strong but our 4th deployment is coming faster and faster :(

I Want to just slow time down .....just a little ....he'll miss so much....Halloween again, thanksgiving....again....but this year, the first Christmas without him in three years :( and he'll miss cannon's first birthday :(

It's getting a little too hard to handle. I hope he picks up Sgt before we leave....I just keep praying :)


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Tired...

I took my medicine ....I hope I get to feeling better. I need some extra energy these days :(


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Just a lil Sumthin

Well...Shane is coming home in 12 days. And will be home hopefully until mid may...or end of May. Anyway we are going to get the rest of the furniture and hopefully a house on Base and then maybe we can get some things done like all of our things that should be in storage ...in there and then get some things situated. Like get some things for the backyard. Like patio furniture and some playhouse things for the kids? Maybe a swing set? Well anyway there is a lot to be handled be handled before he leaves for deployment. Set up the kids room and get all their furniture all set up. Maybe even do some painting. I believe I found a photographer...well one of two. I will check some prices and get back to you guys but the guy I reallllyyyy wanna use he and his wife do it together and they are amazing!! Absolutely gorgeous pictures!! So I hope I can work a price out for them to come to our wedding...Our ceremony is going to be gorgeous and absolutely amazing or at least I hope so haha - I'm going to do some laundry and try and get some other things done so I'll try to write some more later.



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When my eyes are closed I can feel your breath on me and I feel your lips on my neck...although this is all from memory it's as if you are right here laying next to me. Your chest is warm and you kiss the top of my head and you gently brush my lower back with your fingertips... My eyes stay closed my breathing becomes deep, I've never felt this safe and calm. You are an amazing man...the man of my dreams. You have stood beside me through it all and have helped me through so much. When grandma passed away you knew I needed you and you rushed to my side ... I will never be able to tell you how much that meant to me. You are everything to me. I love you without fail...through the rain and clouds of our dark days I'm still here with my heart to offer to you. I love you darling...

- your wife




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The Last 90 days...

It has become extremely difficult every passing day to keep the stress at bay....
When Shane and I talk it's very hard because we are both going through so much...and so ready to be together again. We are both anxious and want it to pass quickly although it seems to drag.
today has been the longest day of my life...

I've decided to keep the going out to a minimum from now on..I've got to get in the mind set of finally having my life together. My Marine will return home from Iraq...the day I've waited for for so long. I miss him an incredible amount. You just have no idea-

Shane has been there emotionally,spiritually,and in a way physically. Every time i just think I am going to give up, I look at our picture and think about how amazingly happy I am with him....just being in the same room with him is just so comforting...Hearing his voice....The closer he is the happier I am...

He is an amazing man...just absolutely my Dream husband. He loves me through all my faults...because I am no where near perfect. We fight...we bicker....we argue...but never once has he ever quit on me...Even when some days I'm close to throwing in the towel knowing it wont make anything "easier"....he calms me down...

It's this whispery tone he has...."Baby....Baby....Lauren....Calm down Honey"

....At that moment the wall....of frustration and anger and stress melts...crumbles..

He is the only man I will ever need in my life, he is my prince charming ...the monst handsome man I've ever met and My dream...He is my hero infact. He has done some amazing things with his life- His career. Although being a Marine Wife is a tough job...'Toughest in the Corps'...I am willing and ready to take on the challange. Come what may.....moving...babies...deployments...training...CAX....PTA....Cpl's Course...Sgt's Course....Weekends in the field....

I will not give up....I will not quit. I will make this marriage work and I will stand my my Marine's Side..
I will not Let a deployment get the best of me....it may wear me down but will NEVER break me.
Afghanistan Deployment will be a piece of cake...

you bring on that 8 month deployment back to back...I can handle it. I will run my household and I will be Mommy and Daddy ....i will step up and do what has to be done. There will be days that I may come close to breaking...but i will stand strong.

My Marine works hard for his Country and for his family- He is an outstanding Marine and a damn good Man.

i love you Cpl Glasco....and I will follow you wherever the wind may take us...

as long as we do this together...i will never ever ever quit

....We Love you Darling- L & B

Is that your final answer....

Well, the decision was made after a 2 and a half our conversation...

Shane will extend so he can redeploy to Afghanistan in the Summer of 2010. ugh.
well, I mean this is how i look at it...

Shane will come home Early we can get this whole ball rolling on getting settled in and he will go to squad leaders course here in Hawaii....and we can have the whole honeymoon phase. Mid to late September most likely and then we will get our place and start getting everyhting all set up for the rest of the time we have left in hawaii...we wont PCS probably until like Feb or March 2011. so thats plenty of time to gather up a crap load of furniture and the car and everything and save a crap ton of money. Then i get to pick where we PCS too!!.....can we say HELLLOOO San diego!?!? haha

but seriously....cali is one of my unchartered areas...I have always wanted to go. So i mean its pretty much decided! So shane will come home early...and go to the course for possibly two months but it is on island...so he will come home at night which is fantastic! then in the summer of next year he will deploy to afghanistan with 3/3 weapons again... which will bring him to a total of 3 deployments...We hope by the third deployment he will be e-5 ...sgt. or at least pick it up over there.

The huge difference between this deployment and the afCrapistan one...will most likely be ..Everything. he gets to call all the time now. sometimes twice a day. which i wont lie, i love that and it spoils me.

....pause..he just severly irritatated me right this moment..and im not even going to finish this...for fear i will write something ugly and demeaning about his character/attitude...

freakin guys are such inconsiderate douchecanoe's sometimes...

just some decisions

I just talked to Shane...and We had a heated convo about the HotorNot, and so erased it...

but anyway the realsituation at hand are these options we have, now dont get me wrong..if he wanted to join the fucking marine corps circus id follow him in his decision. but im not really loving this whole 'entend' thing. i mean look at the pros and cons...

We will start with the pros
1. he comes home in september
2. we will get married earlier
3. we will get our life started earlier
4. when he goes to school we will get seperations pay
5. when he deploys we will make tons of money and be able to save a ton


The Cons
1. he will leave for 2 months for that school
2. we will only have 5 months together before he has to deploy again
3. he will deploy again
4. I will go thru another deployment in less then 9 months of the previous deployment
5. we will be rushed to find a place and furniture and not be able to spend quality family time together...no newly wed phase...
6. we will probably have to go on leave to his families house before he redeploys again

...If he chooses to just reenlist, i know truly in my heart he will not be happy. He wants to extend. He loves his unit and his job and wants that school and the extra training....I know he loves that shit. i know he does and thats why im so dead set on him doing what makes him happy. i wouldnt care if we were poor, i honestly dont give a shit. as long as he is happy....that makes me happy.

besides if he extends i could start and finish my dental assistant school...its only 8 months, and finally something ive accomplished. something for shane to be proud of..

I want him to have a wife that does something he is proud of-
I love him, I really do. I miss him so much right now...but if he extends i get him home early...and lord knows i would love the shit out of that!! but i dont know he is supposed to call back and we will see what he has to say...and what we will further discuss it....but im leaning more toward extending...

even if it is a little hard....ust think...when he gets back from afghanistan ..he will reenlist..and then we will have 3 or 4 years together...no MORE DEPLOYMENTS!!!....

soo..i mean one more 7 month deployment in exchange for 3 years with Shane...when we can finally settle down maybe buy a house...and have a baby :) Harley Cole Glasco.

:) Maria Vera Glasco,I like that a lot too....

well, we will see...lets hope for the best....i will keep you posted! ive got a lot on my mind..and ijust wanted to get it off my chest...i feel a lot better.